Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Getting there

I've been slowly losing the 15 lbs that I packed on after my unfill. I'm about halfway there to my lowest adult weight. It helps that Donny has restriction when it's cold.

I was scheduled for a fill on 12/12 but I called and cancelled today. I have restriction. I'm exercising. I'm losing the "i forgot what it felt like to eat without pb'ing" pounds. Why mess with a good thing?

I did reschedule for January just so that I can be on the calendar, but I'll see where I am with weightloss after vacation and decide from there.

My unfill was denied by insurance. I told my surgeons office what they needed to do to make sure it was paid and they told me that I was wrong and that there wouldn't be an issue. If they try to bill me for the visit, I'll fight it. I emailed them and talked to them on the phone prior to coming in and explained what the insurance company wanted and they chose to ignore me. They will have to write it off.

Yeah I'm in that kind of mood. But I did yoga tonight and then hit Sam's club for healthy lunch food. Yay me. Dinner is water and deli ham. Woot.

Until next time!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

It's a sign...

I was all set for my fill today, despite the fact that the deep freeze that is gripping the east coast brought me restriction yesterday.

I was on the fence, since I finally had restriction, but it was too late to cancel my appointment without having to pay the no-show charge, so I decided I would go.

Then my surgeons office called to get me to reschedule because my surgeon had to do an emergency surgery.

I took that as a sign that I shouldn't get a fill right now... So I rescheduled for Friday, December 5. I just remembered that I have a conflict that day, also.

I'll get a fill eventually. Right now I'm going to work on doing this the old fashioned way, with hard work and exercise. And when I get a fill, great. Until then, I can at least TRY my hardest.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Bad blogger, bad bander

I'm bad. I'm not updating. I'm not following band rules.

I've gained about 15 lbs since my unfill, so I am getting a fill next week.

Work has been good. Life is good. I won a kindle fire HD today at a conference. I'm going to see my best friend for that thanksgiving in two weeks.

I've been eatting l carbs like there is no tomorrow. Bagels, rice, bread, pastries, chocolate. You name it, and ive been eatting it. Im done. Tomorrow I'm going to do my best to detox and get back on high protein and low carb. I'll be a bear, but it needs to be done.

Pray that I can get back on track.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Welcome back!

Over the past few days, restriction seems to be creeping back into my life.

I'm not complaining. I wanted it to happen. It's just odd that I went from wideopen to slowly increasing restriction. Food that I was able to eat with wild abandon isn't as appealing now. I'm not a bottomless pit (as much). I actually feel satisfied.

I'm not saying that I don't struggle during the day. I do. Mainly, I think it's withdrawal from the massive sugar that I was eating so I get the mid afternoon snackies. But I can drink SO MUCH WATER now. It's like I'm a desert that hasn't seen the rain in years.

I don't go back to the surgeon until 11/19, so I'll see where I'm at with weightloss and restriction when that day gets here.

Happy hump day!

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Eat eat eat

You know how the cookie monster dumps cookies in his mouth? Yeah, that's been me.

Except I'm not eating cookies. It's been chocolate. Hershey's Special Dark chocolate, to be specific. And gingerbread bagels with peanut butter. And halloween candy. It's also been aunt flow visiting, which hasn't helped.

I forgot to weigh on Friday morning, so I weighed Friday before I left work and I was up 2lbs from the date of unfill.

I start my work weight-loss challenge on Monday. That should help keep me on track, since we are doing it through the holidays. There are only four of us doing it... We didn't invite anyone else... But still, having to weigh in front of other people should motivate me. Along with the fact that I want to fit into this new pair of jeans in time for my office holiday party on December 5.

On November 10, my gym starts a workout challenge. I signed up for that also. $15 to compete, and you get a T-shirt, and entered to win $200 just for working out 3x a week until December 21. I already plan to go 3x a week, so why not try to win some money? That would be awesome, BC I need to get tires on my car soon.  And maybe brakes. Either way, I could use the cash.


Monday, October 27, 2014

Life goes on

About 10x a day since my unfill, I find myself arguing (with me) about what I should and should not eat, as opposed to what I can and cannot eat.

Getting fluid taken out is both liberating and SCARY. In the back of my mind is the constant chatter of "I can eat this, and this, and this", while the other half of my brain is going, " just because you can, doesn't mean you SHOULD".

So I try to make concessions to eat some of the things I want, while still being smart. For example, I've really wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. So I bought peanut butter, and I bought jelly. But instead of a loaf of bread, I got sandwich thins instead. I do NOT want to climb onto the carb-wagon, and then not be able to get back off.

This weekend, I feel like I ate and ate and ate, but when I look at what I actually consumed, it doesn't seem that bad. I think that the fact I'm eating and it's actually STAYING down is what I need to adjust to. It's been so long since I've been able to enjoy a meal without a PB bottle in my hand that I've forgotten how the LapBand is supposed to act.

Things that I am making my goal this week:
1. Chew, chew, chew. I really need to chew more thoroughly before swallowing. When I don't chew enough, I can feel things passing through Donny, and I know that I'm causing potential swelling issues.
2. Portion control. I'm going to work on controlling my portion sizes, so that I'm eating the right size portion for my Band.
3. Drinking with meals. The past few days, I've rediscovered eating and drinking together. I need to get that back under control, but honestly I think that I've been so dehydrated for so long that my body wants water ALL the time. But that's a goal to fix this week.

So, happy Monday WLS peeps. Here's to a new start to a new week!

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Game changer

I had no idea that I was to tight for pretty much the past year.

For the past two days, I have been able to eat without ANY PB or slime episodes. And I still have restriction. The main difference is, I stop eating when I know I should--not because I'm physically unable to continue.

I portioned my food when it arrived, and only ate what I planned. Dinner last night at Bar Louie was 2 shared spinach dips with chips (maybe 4 chips from each dish), half of the Chicago Stockyard burger (no bun), and half of the tater tots (about 8). Oh, and a half priced S'mores martini.

And it was good. And I was able to focus on the conversation with my friends instead of making repeated trips to the bathroom. I didn't have any "oh shit" moments when I took a bite, wondering whether it would go down. Or get stuck.

I'm sleeping better. Eating better. Drinking more water.

I didn't get on the scale yesterday, mainly because I had just weighed on Wednesday at the surgeons. But next Friday, I'm going to weigh, and I'm going to work hard to see that number go down. I'm 27.4 pounds from the 2's.

My new goal is to try to lose that 27.4 by January 5 when the friendly work contest ends.

I'm going to work hard to see the unfill as a game changer. A motivator. And potentially a key to unlocking my stalled progress.

Happy Saturday!