Sunday, June 28, 2015

Struggles

I got a fill on Friday, June 19. I went from 2.0cc to 5.5 cc. According to my surgeon, I have a 14cc band and not a 10 cc band. Irregardless, I feel nothing right now. It's weird because even last November when I had my first unfill, I was at 6.5cc and had been "too tight" for a year and had pretty much lived on ice cream, had coughing and vomiting every night, and got an upper respiratory infection from night vomit getting into my lungs that caused me to go on prednisone.

In April, when I got my second unfill, I was at 5.5 and so swollen and irritated that I couldn't drink water and lost 16lbs in 5 days from dehydration. And now... Nothing. It's like I still don't have a band.

My next appt is in August, but after my period, I might schedule another fill sooner. The only bad part is that my insurance changed and I have to pay for each fill out of pocket until I reach $1500 for the year. I assume each fill is about $300, so it's very intimidating and cost prohibitive.

In the meantime, I'm doing a vegetarian eating plan. Not quite vegan, but definitely vegetarian. I've been debating about eating fish, but it's been more than two weeks since I've eaten meat, and I'm actually doing pretty good. The ELB said that I'm past the bitchy phase now (meaning that I'm past the point that I would shank someone for a Whopper). And I've made a valiant effort to also give up soda.

The only drawback is how gassy I am....ALL the time. Might need to invest in some beano. Any suggestions on how to make a predominately vegetable diet less odoriferous?

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Slowly making changes

I got my fitbit, and yesterday during Zumba, it went all crazy because I got 10k steps. By the time I finished and got home, I had over 15k steps logged. Yay me.

Yesterday, I also had a vegetarian day... Slowly working to to the 22day Revolution to go vegan. Other than some homemade pimento cheese, I was all veggies. I've done the same today. Baby steps.

I've gotten alot of the staples for the Revolution diet, and I'm debating the merits of starting before I get my fill on 6/19, or waiting till after. Either way, Im going to try out some of the recipes before hand. On the list is chia pudding. I'll let you know how it turns out!

I'm getting back on track, even though I'm not perfect. I'm feeling better, even though my next gym visit is postponed until next Wednesday due to the orioles in town.

Later gators!

Thursday, June 4, 2015

To Fitbit or not to Fitbit... That is the question

I've had mixed feelings about fitbits. I want one.. I don't want one. I want one but only if it's the Charge. I don't care is it's a Charge. Will I use it? Our will it be another piece of failed technology?

Walmart has the Fitbit Flex in pink on sale for $79. I think I'm going to get it. I want to think it's going to motivate me to walk more and be active. Ive gained 26kbs in 6 weeks since my unfill. And no gym, either.

I feel fat and bloated and gross. My clothes don't feel right. I'm tired and grouchy. Yes, Aunt Flow is coming next week. And yes, I am working my way up to doing the 22day revolution plant based diet. And I'm hoping to get back to the gym soon...but I am going think that a piece of pink plastic is going to motivate me to do better. It's how my brain works.

In preparation for the 22 day challenge, I've been getting somewhat organized. I've been buying food storage containers, I'm making the shopping list and picking up things as I find them, and I'm shopping around. I found some of the staples at Big Lots, surprisingly. They carry Bobs Red Mill products like GF flour, rolled oats, milled flax seed, quonoa, and millett at less than Whole Foods prices. I also picked up the powdered seasoning like curry, turmeric, parsley leaves, and garlic for $1 each.

There are some things that will require a visit to Trader Joes and Whole Foods....but not before I check Walmart first...and Aldi, too, for canned things. 

I'm preparing to do this mentally, so that I'm ready to do this physically.

I'll let you know when I'm ready to start.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Back in B'more

After a trip to SC this weekend, we are back in Baltimore.

Yesterday was brutal. I had two job interviews yesterday... 9am in Columbia, then at 3pm in Charleston. Then the ELB drove 12 hours home so that I could sleep. We got in at 6am this morning. I went to bed at 6:15, then got up at 7:15 to shower and head to work.

I feel pretty good about the Charleston interview. The Columbia one seemed too rushed. Going down, I felt the opposite of what I feel now. Either way, if it's meant to be, it will be. The job will come, and the move will follow.

I'm one tired girl today. But one thing I do know is that after work today, I'm ready for a change. I'm ready to move. I'm ready for a new start in a new city.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Ch...ch...ch...changes

The ELB and I, while on vacation the other year, commented that it would be really great if we could move to SC, and live there all the time.

And I think that it might actually happen.

Next Monday, I have TWO interviews in SC..on the same day...in two different cities... And I have to be at work at my real job in Baltimore on Tuesday morning.

So, internet peeps... Please send some positive thoughts my way as I try to make the next step of my life a reality. It will be a rough turn around. The ELB will drive all night so that I can sleep and not be a total washout at work on Tuesday.

I'm being positive. I have faith that if either of these jobs is the right one for me, then things will work out. If not, then I will keep trying.

Mentally, I'm ready. Bring it on.

Monday, April 27, 2015

City life

I'm sure that you've all seen the craziness that has been Baltimore the past week. The marches. The riots. The looting. The violence.

This had been our life for a week. As residents of the city, we are living  daily with fear of property damage. Of whether we can get home at night. Of whether our car will be there in the morning.

But until Saturday, this was a minor inconvenience... Then things escalated. There were peaceful marches that disrupted traffic. And then there came the full fledged riots.

Tonight, there are riots, and fires, and looting. Police officers are being attacked. Cars are being burned.

My boss sent me home early, concerned for my and another coworkers safety. I got home before everything really got bad with traffic. The ELB and I are barricaded in our house, for lack of better words.

We are watching the news. And we are concerned. The crowds are growing outside. And it's only a few blocks from our house in this city that we have chosen to call our home.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

Complete unfill

So this is what went down this past week:

Monday, I noticed that I was having more restriction than normal. I had trouble with cream of wheat at breakfast, and soup at lunch. I ate dinner without any issues. I chalked it up to my impending aunt flow visit. I stepped on the scale and it was exactly 349.0.

Tuesday, nothing stayed down. Hot tea didn't help. Water was a fail. Still not worried, it happens on occasion. I figured by dinner, I would be fine... But I wasn't. Went to bed, tired, hungry, and thirsty fighting a migraine the size if Texas.

Wednesday, I woke up with the migraine, plus my teeth hurt from clenching them against the pain. Every attempt to eat or drink was meet with resistance. I resorted to sliders just to get something Anything down. Ice cream, Powerade Zero... Nothing would go through. And now I have pain. Everything in came right back out.

Thursday, I hurt all over. My head was now the size is the entire continent of Europe. My stomach hurt from throwing up. I wasn't able to sleep because I was vomiting in my sleep... So I sat up on the couch all night with a bottle. I called my surgeon from work, and they couldn't see me until Friday unless I went to the ER. They told me to get 4 oz of fluid and hour... Which I did, but then it would come back up tinged with blood. I was worked in on the schedule for Friday.

Friday, I felt like death, but I had a conference for work that I had to go to. So I made myself shower and go... I ate ice chips and sipped Powerade Zero. I threw up twice. I didn't trust myself to drive, so the ELB drove me... Which I was OK with because I didn't want to go to the doctor alone.  I left at 10:30 to get to my surgeon. I had to wait two hours to be seen, every minute agony. I stepped on the scale and it said 332.8. I lost 16 lbs from dehydration, and my surgeon wanted to give me an IV. I just wanted to leave.

So now I am at home working on rehydration. Liquids and softs. Lots of water, but I really want a diet Pepsi loaded with ice. I had some mashed potatoes, but I'm afraid to try anything else.

Two months to keep myself on track, heal my stomach, and hopefully not regain a ton of weight. My insurance is changing, so I don't know if my new plan will provide any coverage for bariatric services.

Either way, I will deal with it as it comes.

Happy Saturday.