Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Unfilled and feeling pretty good!

I got a small unfill last week--0.5 cc out of my "confirmed" 10cc band. Now I'm sitting right at 5cc--or half full.  What a huge difference!

I can drink water like nobody's business! It's amazing--I was relying on soda just to help me eat--and now I can drink water again I feel so much better! I can eat without issues--no PB or stuck issues. And I've cut my soda back to like one time a day for caffeine purposes.

I've noticed that I feel less hungry, if that's even possible. I'm not eating all day. Meals seem to keep me satisfied for hours, so that sometimes I need to remind myself to eat. I'm able to make healthier choices like salad without fear of issues. I haven't been to the gym since the unfill (aunt flow was visiting), but I have double Zumba and kick boxing tonight.

I will admit a small binge on Halloween candy this week, but that's over BC I ate it all and now it's gone.

Right now I'm focusing on the basics. I'm tracking calories (under 2000 per day), working on my water, and will go back to the gym at least three days per week. I need to try to add more exercise, but I'll work on that moving forward (maybe try to add back my daily lunch walk when I have time to take lunch).

I have an appt to get a refill in February, but I'm really hoping that this works and I can see progress.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Planning an unfill

I'm still battling the snot-monster. It's never ending, it seems like. I do everything that I'm supposed to be doing per my ENT, but it doesn't seem to be enough. Twice daily saline flushes, Claritin, plus weekly allergy shots. But I usually wake up choking on snot, and relying on Coke to dissolve the snot so that I can eat and drink.

So Wednesday, I'm going to ask for a small unfill to see if it alleviates some of the issues I'm still having. Plus, this is the  season when the ELB and I gear up our travel (Detroit, Myrtle Beach, and Alabama on the schedule for the next three months), and I would prefer to not have any emergency issues on the road.

Fingers crossed that it helps.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Donny is a real...piece of work

So, Donny has been really persnickety lately. It doesn't help that Ive had alot of sinus issues with drainage. That's beside the point.

For the past six weeks or so, Donny has been to the point that I need to drink soda in order to break up the snot so that I can actually eat anything and get it through my band. I know, I know, don't lecture me about soda.

I've also been having night coughs again because the sinus drainage at night backs up and won't go down. It's not acidic, it's just hot watery snot.

Three days ago, I told the ELB that i might get a small unfill at the end of the month. Like .25 or even .5. Right now, I supposedly have 5.5 in a 14 cc band, but I really think that it's 5.5 in a 10cc band BC I think my surgeon got mixed up. Either way, I'm not too tight, and before the sinus issues and infection, I was doing awesome at this restriction.

Since my unfill comment, Donny has been AMAZING. She's got restriction, but not so much that I'm having PB. I can drink water again. I'm feeling satisfied, and the night coughs are lessening.

What's up with that? I didn't think that my band was capable of independent thought, but apparently she is.

I'll see how things go through the end if the month and see where things stand before I make any fill/unfill decisions.

I don't know why I have so much trouble with my band. I see so many other people who have had successful weightloss with their bands, and I haven't. I get frustrated that I'm only a few sizes down from where I started, and I'm still wearing a 26/28. I really thought that I would be a success story, but I guess that's not meant for me to be.

Anyways, I'm still here. I'm still plodding along. I'm exercising, and trying to eat healthy, and still wanting to have a baby but I wanted to be less heavy before that, but now my biological clock keeps reminding me that I'm 39, and time is running out. And I'm nowhere ready physically or financially for a baby.... Even though I want one. Sigh.

Sometimes I really feel like I missed out on the life I was supposed to have because of my weight. But then again, my weight had given me the life that I have. So I guess it's not all bad. I have a man that loves me and wants to be with me and has been with me for almost 10 years. I'm pretty accomplished in my chosen field, which I've worked hard to get to because I've had to fight the weight stigna, so I worked harder in school and in certifying so that I would be more marketable. I have some terrific friends that I never would have met if not for this lapband. I just wish that I had been able to do more with it, and to be a weight that I'm not so ashamed of.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Wow, i suck at blogging

So, it's been a while. How y'all doing?

I'm hanging in there. I've been sick...again. I have a sinus infection that moved into both my ears. That has been horrible to deal with. Like, Vicodin horrible. Plus all the drainage and Donny tightening up on me.... It's been a struggle. I slept 15 hours from Friday into Saturday.

I had to cancel my fill appt because at the time I had so much irritation I was actually having PB episodes again, which scares me. So I moved that to November with the hope that going to the gym more will help me to relose what I've gained.

Work has been nuts lately--long hours, employee issues, firing and hiring, and essentially being overwhelmed. I love my field, and yes, daresay most days I love my job. It's just turned into a high stress position recently.

So that's all that's going on in my world. The ELB is good. I'm getting better. Just looking forward to fall.

Thursday, August 6, 2015


Heading to Virginia for my mom's annual memorial. I hate this trip. Third year in a row and it doesn't get easier.

Monday, August 3, 2015

I ate meat

Omg I didn't realize how much I missed meat! I had some chicken yesterday for the first time in two monthes... And I did fine.

I'm don't think that I'm going to go back to eating meat all the time. I really like alot of the vegetarian and vegan foods that I've been eating, so I think that I'm going to try to do a more plant based diet with the occasional meat addition.

If nothing else, I proved that I can do it.

Saturday, July 18, 2015

On being vegetarian

I'm still doing the vegetarian plan.... It's been since June 8, and I've stuck with it.

I made it through my period. And now it's been almost 6 weeks. And this is what I've learned:

1. Not all restaurants are vegetarian friendly.

2. It's very easy to be lazy and slip into making poor food choices.

3. I'm really glad that I can still eat cheese, but eggs do not like me at all.

4. Eating vegetarian is more expensive because you have to buy alot more fresh fruits and vegetables.

5. I'm still very very gassy, even this far in.

This past week, I had two work lunches. One to view a room and menu for the holiday party in December, and the other was a working lunch for management. The holiday party venue was a very nice upscale chain restaurant that is known for their seafood. Unfortunately, there is not a single vegetarian option on their menu. However, they were very nice and modified a pasta dish for me.

The work lunch was ordered in, and my only vegetarian option was a grilled cheese sandwich--mainly because I didn't want pasta two days in a row. See what I mean about making good choices? It's very hard sometimes, especially when your choices are limited. We will be having our holiday party at that location, and l have to figure out what I get to eat since every entree ordered for the dinner contains beef, chicken, or seafood.

With going to the gym more, I'm not getting home until later at night... Sometime not till 8pm. Dinners have turned into convenience. Morningstar chipotle black bean burgers and buffalo 'chicken' patties are great and delicious, but boring after a while. But prep for meals takes time. Plus, I think I'm finally getting some restriction with my band, especially after a zumba/kickboxing night in which I work out for over 2.5 hours. By the time I get home, I'm starving, but I can't eat as much as I think I can.

I plan to try to stick with this meat free life for as long as I can. It's so much easier now than it was. I do feel healthier, and someone at work told me that my skin looked great and was glowing. I chalk it up to the daily chia seed pudding.

Happy Saturday, peeps!